January 31, 2011

I don't hate you, I never will. I just act like I do, because it's easier than admitting that I miss you.

I miss the used to be. Trying to live in the now. Scared for the coming.

I will always remember tonight as the night my life changed. I will never ever touch myself with a blade no matter how hard life gets. I will stick around. I feel pretty now. I feel like I'm worth something. Thank you for making me feel this way.

Seeing you today was no different than in any other day. You walked off, pretending not to see; I looked away, not wanting to see.

you said you would call. then you changed your mind and hung out with the guys instead of me. you said you really wanted to see me. i knew you were lying.

You're voice was the soundtrack of my summer. Do you know you're unlike any other? You'll always be my thunder.

Missing Someone ~

Aku miss ma kaw bha bodoh ! aiyooo !

Kisses In The V.I.P

Escape The Fate !

January 30, 2011

Staying with someone you really like even if you know it's better letting go is like standing under the rain. It fells good but you know it will make you sick.

The truth is, I'm one of those few people who actually care when I ask "What's wrong?". The only problem is that usually I have no idea what to say afterwards or how to make it better. I try not to use phrases like "That sucks" or "I'm sorry", but I still can never find the right words to say. But I promise, I'll always listen. I guess that's all I can do.

January 29, 2011

If this is what love is all about, you can count me out. baby count me out .

Its not about having a perfect relationship but its finding someone who matches you and you will go through everything without giving up .

Isn't it funny how some exes talk as if they had done nothing wrong in their previous relationship? Obviously your girl broke up with you because YOU weren't treating her right. Boy, you're trippin' if you think you're the innocent one.

January 28, 2011

"We’re sick of hearing people say, “That band is so gay,” or “Those guys are fags.” Gay is not a synonym for shitty. If you wanna say something’s shitty, say it’s shitty. Stop being such homophobic assholes."

Everyone says love hurts, but that isn't true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt.

Have you ever wanted to be the girl that: The gets a hug and kiss every day? The girl that gets to wear his hoodie or gets to cuddle every night? The girl that he calls every morning and every night because her boyfriend wanted to be the first hello, and the last goodbye of the day. The girl that he misses and thinks about nonstop, and when you see each other, he holds her tight. The girl he talks about to his friends, and scared that he’ll lose her some way, somehow. The girl he goes crazy without talking to her once a day. Yeah, I’ve dreamt of that once. Or how about, the girl whose boyfriend that lives miles away, but he’ll call her and text her all he can. He’s jealous of all her friends that are boys, because they can see her everyday, but he can’t. Or the girl that makes him laughs and smiles and he hates her being upset. They have cute nicknames that actually have meaning. She can act mad, but he sees right through her. But the one thing she loves is that he gets her and understands her feelings and love for him. Yeah, I wanted to be his girl.

I just realized that anyone else who lives in a different timezone from me is either from the past or the future.

See that girl? Yeah, she's the one who stuck up for you, the one who stayed up til' midnight just to talk to you. She's the one whose heart flutters when she gets a call or text from you. She's the one who fought for you, the one that missed you and loved you. But by the time you realize that she's the girl you want, she'll already be with the guy who figured it out.


Forget his name, forget his face 
Forget his kiss and his warm embrace 
Forget the love that once came true 
Remember now there’s someone new,

Forget the love that you once shared 
Forget the face that had once cared 
Forget the time you spent together 
Remember now he’s gone forever, 

Forget you cried the whole night through 
Forget him when they play your song 
Forget how close you two once were 
Remember now he’s chosen her, 

Forget you memorized his walk 
Forget the way he used to talk 
Forget the times he was mad 
Remember he’s happy instead of sad, 

Forget his teasing, gentle ways 
Forget you saw him everyday 
Forget he made your dreams come true 
Remember now she loves him too, 

Forget the thrill when he walked by 
Forget him when he made you cry 
Forget the way he spoke your name 
Remember now he’s not the same, 

Forget the way he said he loved you 
Forget the way he kissed and hugged you 
Forget all those nights when he held you tight 
Remember now he holds her tonight, 

Forget all those sunny days 
Forget all those poems he made 
Forget those times through good and bad 
Remember he said he’d never make you sad, 

Forget the games he played with you 
Forget the times he stayed with you 
Forget those cold, cold nights 
Remember now he keeps her warm tonight, 

Forget the way he looked at you 
Forget you kissed the whole night through 
Forget all you dreams came true 
REMEMBER, that he doesn’t love you. 

I actually like being different, I like being the girl who gets along with boys more than girls. The girl who doesn't obsess with the color pink. The one who doesn't care what she looks like. I'd rather be in sweat pants, hair tied. No makeup. Doing me. Not trying to impress anyone, nor trying to be a people pleaser. I live to please myself. Not anyone else.

January 27, 2011

rawkrawk !

rawkrawk !

Crush !

Hey hey . long time tidak updated blog ku nie . sorry yah , busy bha . Faham-faham lah . naaah , start cerita . Ada aku minat dua orng lelaki nie . nama nya si G & K . Si G tidak sudah skula . habis sudah . Lama sudah aku minat dia tu . Si K pulak masih skula . satu skula lek . aku minat dia sejak aku first baru st.mike . naah , lama sdh tu . Apa lek cerita arh ? hahahahaha  . :D

Ouuuu yah , sabtu nie ada skula . KRS jak . kimak bha cikgu tu . orang lain sabtu rehat-rehat . nie tidak pulak . KIMAAAAAKKKKK ! 

January 15, 2011

New Photo Of 2011 !

Promises ?

Promises are worse than lies. Cause you make them hope. Hope for something that you're not sure you can give. :D